Ya Had A Bad Day

Today was treatment number 5 for radiation. It was nothing out of the ordinary. The techs (all 4) were ready and waiting for me when I got there. I found myself to be extremely uncomfortable in the position I had to be in today which was not anything different from the usual, but my neck hurt having to keep it turned to the left out of the way of the beam.


For some unknown reason I began to feel weepy inside right in the middle of the treatment. I had to keep telling myself - Brenda, don't move, don't move. I wanted to yell out loud to them, TIME OUT, I need to cry here RIGHT NOW! Then a sudden hot flash came upon me and that swarmed me like bees at a hive full of honey. I kept thinking, calm down, it will be over soon. In the back ground, as always, there is music playing and I finally was able to focus on the current song that was playing which was "So you've had a bad day" by Daniel Powter. It was peppy and as I set my sights on listening to it, before I knew it, they drew the machine back and said it was done and time to get off the table.

I had to see Dr. C today and that went very well. He showed me all my "xrays" of where they shoot the beams and how they do the job they are set up to do - kill bad cells. Before I knew it he had me laughing with his wonderful sense of humor and great bedside manor and I was heading home. Another treatment done - 25 to go!